The three stages of Hegel’s concept of The Unhappy Consciousness go: first stoicism, followed by skepticism and cynicism, followed finally by the unhappy consciousness.
Each stage is an attainment and bases itself on the concept of the ascetic life, a life of self-denial and self-discipline and close to obsession with bettering the spiritual self rather than the physical self, which must work and live within the external world unhappily.
My aim is to disassociate myself with human interaction unless it is required by academia and personal relationships that offer some gain. I want to cut down the interaction with individuals/places/ideas that offer no solution to my desires and add to the regression of my happiness and intellect.
Do I owe anything to anyone? No. Why not oppose things obviously rather than passively participate and lose part of myself and pieces of my own will and dignity? My mind is troubled enough- why must I concern myself with the inane issues that consume my immediate world? I can’t do it anymore. I wish to be genuine in any emotion I show and feel. If it overwhelms me enough to speak, I will speak. If I feel nothing, I will not stay. If it hurts me, I will have expected it already.